By Camille, on May 21st, 2012
A new home is like a blank slate. You take it and turn it into living space that feels like home. Both Ashely and Jeremy have emailed photos of the five-bedroom rental house we’ll be living in once we reach Kumasi. Jeremy is already down there, working hard to make the house a home, putting in a garden and fencing for chickens and goats. Captions are below the photos.
 
As you stand in the street facing the front of the house, here is the front of the house with its octagonal room and the left side yard. The young folk will be sharing the upstairs. The old gray-haired couple will reside on the ground floor.
 
Right side yard looking toward the chicken coops from the front of the house. And the chicken coops themselves. Note the razor wire atop the stone wall around the yard.
 
Back yard looking from the chicken coops and from the chicken coops looking across the right side yard up into the street.
 
Views from the front porch to the street in front of the house and a view of the back yard.
 
Upstairs living room, dining room and kitchen.
 
Downstairs solarium and kitchen – the Trouts Pad which may also be used as lab.
By Camille, on May 7th, 2012
Like a post-apocalyptic zombie, the community that once was Oilseed continues to limp along in a deathlike state. Outrageous tales of unresolved conflict and violations of trust make their way down the road with disturbing regularity, often accompanied by tears.
It pains us to watch. We try to help by giving advice and offering to mediate. From our perspective, equanimity could be easily arranged. Community could be restored if only a few simple steps were taken. It would begin with an agreement to move forward as a democracy wherein all tenants have a say and every vote counts.
We lived at Oilseed when it was a thriving community of friends and helpful neighbors. We had weekly potlucks and monthly meetings. We didn’t always agree but we were able to make decisions as a group and more forward. The driveway got graded. We vetoed the wedding and long-term camping in the woods. The guineas were approved and came home to roost.
We remember well the painstaking care with which we crafted a pet policy and the evening we spent deciding what to do with one of our members who was behind in their rent. Better remembered are the laughs, deep discussions and warm hugs. Oilseed once meant music nights, craft nights, bonfires, shared meals, long walks and community projects.
We brought what we learned about community with us when we moved down to the bend. We take turns helping each other. We purchase, own and share community assets. We sit on the porch and discuss ways to build neighborhood resilience. We share projects, meals, bonfires, long walks, laughter, deep discussion and warm hugs. Our lives vibrate with positive energy and purpose. Life is good.
We met the latest horror story with disbelief. The situation had escalated beyond mistrust to outright disregard for personal privacy. It can best be described as a violation of human rights complete with illegal searches and legal threats.
What was once a cooperative community has become a not-so-benevolent dictatorship. As sad as this is, the level of outrageousness has actually given us hope. Hope that the community has bottomed out. That it can’t get any worse. That this time, remedial action will be taken to turn things around.
Or, if no fix can be had, hope that our friends at Oilseed will finally walk away. That they will survive this experience and, despite the bad taste in their mouths they will have the nerve to attempt community living again at some point in the future.
By Camille, on May 6th, 2012
 Christmas, 1975 - Bob tries on a new hat at the Accra market
Well, here’s the big news: Bob and I are moving to Ghana, Africa for one year and will be leaving the United States in June!
Columbia University is handling a grant-funded pilot program aimed at figuring out a process for turning fecal sludge into Biodiesel. Last week, Bob received a firm offer from their Department of Earth and Environmental Engineering with the salary he requested.
We find this exciting on multiple fronts. First off, we have both long wanted to spend some time in Ghana. Second, we’ll be working with our good friend Jeremy. Third, Bob needed the work. And fourth, we love the pace of life in the third world.
Bob lived in the coastal city of Accra, the capital of Ghana between the ages of nine and fifteen. We’ll be living in Kumasi, about 160 miles inland from Accra.
His father’s work with Kaiser Aluminum took the family there in the sixties. His father was in an extractive industry, damming a river for cheap power, shipping in ore, turning it into aluminum and shipping it out.
Years ago, after somewhat following his father’s footsteps into the world of manufacturing, Bob promised himself he would not take another job in an extractive industry. Since then he’s been involved in remediation, recycling, biodiesel and teaching.
With this move, Bob will be coming full circle. He’ll be putting his energies into transforming waste into fuel, providing the communities with the revenue they need to clean their waste water.
We are keeping the house, which is a first. Generally we sell and give away nearly everything, put a few things in storage and pack our bags. Where we end up is always a surprise. This time, we plan on ending up right back where we started from. In a year.
By Camille, on March 24th, 2012
Today I’m wondering how much longer I can hold out against the swirling tide of fingertip technology. So far, I’ve resisted peer pressure to buy myself a Smart Phone, choosing instead to cling stubbornly to the slower pace of hand-written directions and desk-top emails.
Most of the folks I interact with have successfully upgraded to phones loaded with apps. Everything from gps, to email to flashlights to weather and beyond. They’ve evolved.
My dumb phone is tiny, fits in my pocket, takes calls and contains an impressive list of contacts. That’s all I want. It’s fair to say I’m proud of my ability to pull out numbers on demand. I’ve become known as the neighborhood contact list and often receive calls from friends looking for someone’s phone number.
The first thing I did to my dumb phone is disable all the alert tones, making it a quiet phone. I picked the most unobtrusive default ringtone I could find and learned how to turn the ringer off.
I have yet to explore the “Games”, “Bluetooth”, “Mobile Web”, or “Browse and Download” options on my phone’s menu. I don’t even send texts because we didn’t sign up for a text plan. When I receive a text, I return it with a call or an email to save the 15 cents. Besides, it takes me all day to type out a reasonable response using the numbered keypad on my phone.
As regards messaging, Bob has gone one step further and blocked texts from his phone. When someone asks him if he got their text, he can truthfully say “No.” I have not disabled my texting capabilities because I continue to receive texts from work associates and feel it’s in my best professional interests not to block them.
I’m aware of the disadvantages of my decision to remain in the Stone Age. I get lost, for one thing. On such occasions, I have to pull over, put on my glasses and look at the paper map I keep in the trunk.
I don’t get emails from my co-workers until I sit down at my desk which isn’t always soon enough. I’ve made it clear that if you need an answer, better give me a call. I’m often outside and I keep my phone in my pocket.
I’ve had plenty of opportunities to upgrade but have so far refused. I’ve got enough of an email addiction as it is without carrying them with me on my phone. I’ve found that my brain is not good at multi-tasking, so best to keep the inputs to a dull roar.
Considering how the volume of inputs has exponentially increased over the past thirty years, it’s not surprising that staying in the ‘now’ has become a challenge. It’s become increasingly difficult for me to stay in the moment and concentrate on one thing at a time.
Thirty years ago (I was twenty-seven) I had a TV with four channels, a telephone connected to the wall of my apartment and a car with a radio. The TV was silent unless I turned it on. My phone seldom rang. The day I figured out that the new phone jacks could be unplugged from the wall was a day of triumph for me. No more phone ringing during dinner or in the middle of the night! That was before phones had a ringer you could turn off.
Let’s just call my stubborn refusal to upgrade an act of self-preservation. Jenny recently shared a great little Ted talk by Susan Cain called The Power of Introverts which helped me put things in perspective. I’d long been aware that my general mood can best be described as “craving solitude” and it was comforting to know that there are many others like me. People who feel like square pegs trying to insert themselves into round holes or vice versa.
Introverts are people who are fine with quiet time and not so fine when overstimulated. I can go days without listening to music. I’ve got enough going on in my head already without trying to listen to someone else’s creations.
My father used to accuse me of being hyper-sensitive. I cut the tags out of my tee shirts and get dizzy in crowds. Bob says I’m like the princess and the pea and it’s true – if I feel even the slightest grain of sand on the bed sheets, I can’t sleep until I’ve brushed the offending nit away.
Before computers and cell phones made their way into my life, solitude was easily attained. Silence was built into my life. I rode borrowed horses across open country without a cell phone or helmet. I heard the cry of the hawks and the soft whir of geese wngs overhead. I received long letters in the mail and sat in a quiet spot to write a reply.
Thirty years ago I had to go out of my way to find chaos. Today I have to work at finding peace and quiet.
My efforts to keep outside stimulus to manageable levels have been successful for the most part. I turn off my computer before I begin working in the kitchen. I flag non-urgent work emails to answer later. I send emails from friends to a separate folder for answering on rainy weekend mornings. I limit my trips to town to three or four a week if possible.
Last year, I set up a loose schedule designating blocks of time as desk, office, yard work, or housework. I put a non-structured hour in the middle of each day to break it up. I seldom stick to my schedule but it’s still comforting to see my compartmentalized life on paper.
All in all, I’m doing a pretty nice job of maintaining sanity in an increasingly spun-up world. Keeping the noise levels down to a dull roar. Giving myself time to think and enjoy. Feeding my inner introvert. And that is why I plan on keeping my old dumb phone.
By Camille, on February 2nd, 2012
The universe whispered in my ear the other day while my head was buzzing from pain. “Don’t be so heavy handed” she hissed, with her hand on her hip. “And while you’re at it, maybe you ought to think about slowing down.”
It was one of those beautiful winter days, uncharacteristically warm but with enough bite in the air to make the horses dance along the trails. It was our first ride after the end of hunting season and we were feeling free to roam the woods at will.
Everyone but Sharon’s Mingo was acting up. I was riding Peg’s Hailey and she was uncharacteristically antsy. Hailey kept telling me I’d picked the wrong day to try and call the shots. I continued to push my luck, reining her back when she’d break into a trot or canter, asking her to make circles when she threatened to buck. Peg and Simon were having similar conversations as were Barbara and Joker.
Two hours into our ride, Barbara rode up alongside us and without any warning, Hailey kicked at Joker. I felt the kick, we all heard the crack of hoof on bone and I instantly smacked her. With my fist. It all happened so fast that it wasn’t clear whether it was poor judgment or poor aim that caused my fist to connect with the bone of her head.
As it turned out, Hailey had missed Joker and hit Barbara’s shin but luckily didn’t break her leg. At this point, we decided to turn back and ride the last hour to Peg’s place. Peg fetched two bags of ice from her freezer and Sharon used a roll of vet wrap to secure one against Barbara’s leg and the other around my hand. We hugged goodbyes and drove off.
A couple of days later I wrote Peg an apology for hitting Hailey in the head. I felt bad, not because my hand still hurt like hell or because I was afraid I’d hurt her horse, but because hitting a horse in the head is really bad form.
I was hoping that I really meant to punch her in the neck and she turned her head but that seemed unlikely. I wanted to think I was simply disciplining her without any anger but that probably wasn’t the case, either.
No one thought I’d broken my hand. Sure it was swollen and bruised but I could still wiggle my fingers. After two weeks of ice and ibuprofen I decided to get an x-ray taken.
Up to now, the fear of having to spend a lot of money as an uninsured patient had kept me from going to a doctor. But after two weeks, my hand was still multi-colored and painfully swollen. I’ve broken enough bones over the years to know what it feels like and this felt more like the ache of bone than bruising. I needed to know whether I should be using the hand or babying it.
My brother Michael tipped me off that chiropractors have x-ray machines so I made an appointment with Dr. Jacqulyn Nygren, an angel of a woman who hummed while she worked and put me at ease immediately. She examined my hand and said she didn’t think it was broken, took two x-rays and went to develop them.
When she returned, she had a smile on her face. “Well, you broke it” she said. Dr. Nygren told me that this particular break is often referred to as a bar room fracture or brawler’s fracture because it is the sign of an inexperienced boxer to land a pinky-first punch.
After only two weeks, the bone was already heavily calcified, thanks to the high calcium content in our well water. The same reason Peg and many other Chatham County residents suffer from kidney stones, I might add. From what I’ve read, the bone should be totally healed in 6 to 12 weeks - sometime between Valentine’s Day and April Fools day.
It was too late for a cast and we don’t have the kind of money it would take to have the hand re-broken and reset anyhow. The good doctor worked the bones as best she could, pulling the fingers straight and smoothing everything out. I won’t say it didn’t hurt but that evening after icing my hand felt the best it had in weeks. It appears the bone suffered only minor angulation. Not enough to impede functionality but I may live with a permanent bump on my hand to remind me not to punch horses in the head.
There is good news here. This break represents an opportunity for change. With my right hand in the air most of the time, I’ve had to slow my day down to three quarter time. While I’ve vowed in the past to slow down, this time I don’t have much of a choice. Meanwhile, I’m getting loads of practice in asking for help and standing back while younger backs do the heavy lifting.
I’ve noticed that as I slow down, I’m more tolerant of others. As I ask less of myself, I find I’ve lowered the bar for those around me. I’m beginning to see that everything will get done, especially if I take on less. My new mantra is “they will work it out themselves” when I see problems I would otherwise rush in to fix. Running the world is not my responsibility. Keeping my own world intact is.
As frightened as I am that my hand will never look or behave the same as it once did, I consider this a lucky break. The message is clear. I can hear it now – that insistent voice urging me to lighten up and slow down.
By Camille, on January 24th, 2012
With the world population of humans fast approaching an unsustainable 7 billion, it is heartening to read that in Brazil, the birth rate has fallen from 6.15 children per woman in 1960 to less than 1.9 today!
Sources:
Washington Post “Birth rate plummets in Brazil”
World Population Estimate 6,989,856,903
 “Live simply so others may simply live.” - Mother Teresa
By Camille, on January 15th, 2012
Pretty much every Sunday we eat some version of this meal for dinner. Mashed potatoes, golden gravy, a fresh vegetable and some kind of protein.
 Braised chard and turnip greens, pan fried quorn (vegetarian) patty, mashed potatoes and golden gravy
It’s been awhile since we’ve made tempeh or seitan cutlets so we’ve been cheating with processed foods. Mostly because Bob has been working 50 hours a week between his full time job and his volunteer work at Chatham Marketplace.
Quorn chick’n patties are delicous but made of mycoprotien and egg whites and a pinch of whey protein concentrate and buttermilk powder. So, they are not hardly vegan and we’ll be looking into vegan patties next trip to the store. As well as looking for time to make some breaded cutlets!
By Camille, on January 15th, 2012
Happiness generally comes in tiny packages, sometimes so tiny that it’s easy to miss if you aren’t paying attention. And because I made a resolution to “Find the joy, lose the beleaguered attitude,” I need to make sure I’m not looking the other way when the bluebird of happiness flies by.
One easy way to fine tune my bliss meter is this – Every night before I fall asleep, I mine my day for bliss nuggets. This leaves me a feeling of appreciation for the joys of the day and sharpens my bliss sensors for the following day.
The variety of gems which fall out of this exercise is fascinating:
- Pink panther oboe notes, signaling a call from Bob
- Laying flat on the floor with my arms over my head
- Tami’s happy, smiling “hello”
- My palms against the smooth bark of a beech tree
- Jenny wading barefoot across the icy waters of Robeson Creek
- A warm smile on a stranger’s face at the post office
- Bright red cardinals against the background of a gray day
- Haruka’s easy, musical laugh
- Running into family at the Marketplace
- One of Link’s soul-enriching hugs
- NPR sound byte: “In capitalism there are some winners and some losers. And it’s unfortunate, but that’s how our system works.”
- Walking around town, car less and carefree
- Sitting on Hailey, taking in the view from Round Top Mountain
- Playing Beck’s “Loser”
- Vegan Tettrazini and Rise of the Planet of the Apes
By Camille, on January 14th, 2012
Here we go again! – Twigs and berries for breakfast…

Check out this Saturday morning breakfast of champeens that Bob whipped up. Tofu Scramble with sauteed onion and garlic, nutritional yeast and tofutti sour cream, crispy fried potatoes, ketchup and pan fried vegan pepperoni.
Poor little vegans.
By Camille, on January 1st, 2012
Well, here we are, eleven hours into 2012 and Bob and I have already eaten a bowl of black-eyed peas to ensure prosperity throughout the coming year.
If I could twinkle my nose and make it so, 2012 would be the year when humanity wakes up and becomes more humane. The war industry would come to a grinding halt, the rich would give to the poor, corporations would release their death grip on our economy and personal greed would evaporate like a bad dream.
The predictions being bandied about with family and friends are mixed between optimism, pessimism and political speculation. We discussed the danger of manifesting bad juju by casting dire predictions, but I decided to include both the positive and the negative as a matter of record.
2012 Predictions
Increased violence surrounding the Occupy Movement
The people will prevail and succeed in changing the balance of power
The United States will go to war with Iran
Things in Syria will get even messier before getting better
The world will not end when the Mayan calendar runs out, but rather there will be a new beginning
Barak Obama will choose Hillary Clinton as his running mate
2012 Resolutions
On a personal level, I have resolutions, my personal wish list for self-improvement. It’s been a few years since I pulled off a formal list but this year I feel inspired. Here’s what I’ve been chewing on:
Attitude
Find the joy, lose the beleaguered attitude
Generously give approval and support
Communication
Listen to what others are saying without thinking about what I want to say next
Think about what information others may need or want to know and make a point of informing them
Don’t share caustic and potentially offensive opinions
Health
More eating to live, less living to eat
Alleviate stress with activity rather than food
Drink more water
Drop five pounds by May 1st by simply avoiding snacks, sweets and second helpings
Time Management
Get there on time
Set a departure time that more than allows for last minute delays
Stop thinking I have time for just one more thing
Schedule time in my day for having fun
So there you have it. A mélange of hopes, fears, dreams and resolve to kick off a new beginning for 2012!
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About Us Bob and Camille found each other in 1990 and soon recognized each other as soul mates. They joined forces, got married, wrote a mission statement and jumped off the corporate treadmill.
Seventeen years later, after living in Colorado, Virginia, Belize, China, Guam, Oahu, Maui, Nicaragua and Texas they did a stage dive into a community of farmers and fuel makers in rural North Carolina and settled in.
Jesus! The Missing Years… Plastic Farm Animals is undergoing reconstruction due to a catastrophic mistake made by our former ISP, who shall remain nameless. Stay tuned as we laboriously upload, one by one, more than 170 missing posts from 2004, 2005, 2006 and 2007.
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