I pondered your post for awhile as I frequently think of what my body is trying to tell me. Searching for the patterns. Collecting the data to see where the connections lie. There have been a couple of times where I went through the list that Louise Hayes provides and found that her suggestions did not quite match with what was happening in the present. I can go through the list and find ways to connect with all of these issues as I’ve experienced just about all of them. They are just not always the highlight of the moment of pain or illness. I’ve thoroughly broken down the thoughts and feelings and when the pain arises to at times come to find my own personal relation to a symptom and what has brought it on.
Much of her guideline is very direct and spot on. Like the creeping up of my back pain and frequently experiencing a lack of support, inability to receive love, inability to trust and the guilt that accompanies it.

Ahh, fingers and how we point from our self righteous stance. Such a regular part of the human condition, considering our beliefs hold our reality together. When something is right to us, we question how others are doing it another way and still able to sleep at night! This one is very important to think about. When I begin to criticize and judge others I see that I am refusing to connect. Yet, I yearn for connections very much. So I must be willing to walk judgmental thoughts out the door as fast as they came in. Then look for a way to connect my reality to another’s reality. Blending them together as it creates something bigger and larger than my own self. Which to me, is so beautiful and makes this world a less scary place.

Now, I thought you might find this next part interesting and something to ponder further. In the early morning I awoke to use the restroom. As I stepped out of bed in a pitch black room, I felt a strong itching sensation on my ankle. I quickly bent over to scratch it, and did not notice or sense the hard wood shelf which met my fast moving head. My right temple ached and throbbed fiercely. I thought, “What a dumb mistake”. Moving on to later in the day I went to cut some zinnias for Bower guests. While holding the scissors I quickly moved them upwards while turning my body to face the flowers and the side of torso caught the tip in a hard way. I thought, “Wow! What a very dumb mistake.” A couple of hours ago I was laying and worrying on matters. I decide to get up and grab a glass of water and I stub my toe on a chair. I thought, “Okay, what is WITH all of these dumb accidents?” As my head still throbs and hurts whenever I chew. I think of how you looked up the symptom of your finger. I go to Louise Hayes guidelines of symptoms online and before I can scroll down to ‘H’ for head, I am at ‘A’ and “accident” flashes at me like its in neon lights. I read it: Accidents: Inability to speak up for the self. Rebellion against authority. Belief in violence.

That moment when I was laying and worrying on matters? Very much correlated with the inability to speak for the self. The family court hearing that is frightening me to tears. My desires to have a voice in my present environment but getting shot down at the times when my courage and confidence is at a low point. If I can’t speak up for myself around those who I think care for me, how will I be able to around those who certainly do not? However, I must. It is time now to take a stand. If at least, just for the sake of my head, toes and anything else in danger of accidents.

Much love to you, Camille. What a great thing, to be able to ponder at all.
Much love to our precious neurons, dendrites, synapses and neurotransmitters too. 🙂

xoxo
Giovanna

You rule a great potluck!

Don’t give that up…
xxx
Carol